My Life, My Future
Recently, I've been thinking alot... I always read articles in newspaper saying how people pursue their dreams, their passion over something, hearing people says I wanna be blah blah blah in the future... I was thinking.. What bout me? What's my dream? What's my passion? It's a blank for each question... I'm gonna graduate and yet, I cant see where does the road im walking on leads to... In fact, I have no idea whether to turn left or right if i've reached a T-junction... There's this day whereby I sat in my working place and think.. Alright after my last sem, I gonna take at least 1mth break.. But.. What's next? find a job.. Yes.. But what kind of job? any that is available or a job that interest me and able to work for my entire life? Sure.. A job that interest me u might say.. But what interest me? ? I can't find an answer to my own question...
That day my sis was flipping her baby photo album and she said this to my mum "I have all sort of piano n organs as birthday presents when Im young but yet, I never get to learn this wonderful instrument as you don't even thought of letting me to learn it.." At that moment, I was surprised that my sis n I have the same regret in life.. I remember I insisted of bringing the only organ I have when we are moving to our new home 10 years back but still, my mum give my favourite organ to somebody else...I also remembered I'll pretend Im a pianist, together with my cousins, playing the piano when there's a piano music played on television... Up till now, Im still regretting why I dont even mention bout learning piano to my mum when Im young... If I did, i dont have to look at kids with envy and goes "wow.. what a lucky boy/girl..." whenever they carried their instruments, walking into my store together with their parents (As there's a music learning centre for kids in the same building Im working at).. I always have this question in mind.. "If only I have some music talents..." Well.. now i don't have the courage to get myself to join any lesson as ,well, I'm overage huh? *smile* But well.. At least I always got an A for my music lessons since K1 or pri 1, regardless is singing or playing the recorder... That's the proudest acheivements in music for my entire life.. *smile* It's ok.. I gonna let my future kid to learn the piano so that he/she wouldn't miss out the one that I've missed out in life...
Well... That day I was chatting with my pri sch friend, Ching Yang on msn.. We were talking bout relationship n stuff... Maybe we always have the similar thinking and maybe that's why we can be friends for so long.. In fact, He is the only one from my 1st primary school that I've keep in contact all the while.. We were talking bout relationship n stuff and i told him the reason why i'm nt into any relationship all these years.. Because Im not ready... Not as if Im being hurt deeply before or etc.. In fact, I've never fall deeply in love with anyone before even though Im into relationships before.. Well.. Maybe Seeing too much or hearing too much may be part of the reason... I m not getting into any relationship till I think Im mature enough to handle love, obviously Im not right now... I don't want to get involved in ridiculous arguements that will leave a scar in the relationship, that might be cause by my childishness or what so ever... The one that I wanted is a man, not a guy.. I no longer the girl who date or fall in love just because i wanted to... I hope the next guy who i date is the one i wanted to marry to... I never wanted to go through the break up process, experience all sort of pain that really kills and then start everything over again.. I never wanted to stuck at this stage... I wanted to proceed to the next stage of life even though I know i cant prevent all sort of things that might happen in the future.. Who knows, maybe the next one might not be the one im getting marry to even though i thot i might... Well... Everything has to wait till Im mature enough which is a few years later... But still, This is my ideal love life...
Just in case anyone of you was wondering what happen to me, no worries.. There's nothing happen but these are some of the things that I've been thinking these few days.. Well.. Being able to clear some things in mind or sort things out or thinking and planning for my future is definitely part of my growing up... *Smile*
Feeling fresh,
VoN
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